Bomb Dropped

[sitonmyinterface]

So my boyfriend dropped a mini bomb the other night by saying that he might want to have a kid someday, after all. I have always been Ms. No-Kids McGee, and he has to realize I am 37 going on an improbable age to be a mother. I have a whole list of fears associated with pregnancy, giving birth, and having a child. It's the rest of your life; your child becomes your life.

Pregnancy Fears	Birthing Fears	Aftermath Fears
Preeclampsia	Ruined vagina	Sickness/death
Gestational diabetes	Incontinence	Being bullied
Morning sickness	The pain	Becoming an asshole, criminal, or drug addict
Hemorrhoids	Needing a C section	Worrying for the rest of my life
Bed rest confinement	A bunch of bloodwork	Bringing someone into a shit world
Going off my psych meds	Dying (myself, the baby, or both)	Not having help with baby things
Going off BC pills (hormones)	Hospital anxiety	Abused or raped by a stranger
Anal prolapse	Deformities or down syndrome	Their future pain

So that's that... I could honestly make this list so much larger but trying not to get lost in it.

Comments

[ironymaiden]

You forgot post-partum depression :/

[sitonmyinterface]

Yeah there's that. I have a history of it so feel I would be able to feel that coming on, or when I start fantasizing about pitching a baby out the window.

[wolfpack82]

There are no guarantees in life. Always risks in no matter what choice we make.

[sitonmyinterface]

So true, and so many have children, it's like death anxiety for me, haha