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Because I waited on my wisdom teeth, because they were "just trying to get my money", I have to get a coronectomy from an oral surgeon this Friday because two nerves are running over the root of the tooth. Luckily it's just one tooth and it's lower so I won't have to worry about my sinuses getting fucked up.

Honestly, the thing I am most nervous about it the twilight sedation. I have never gotten that before so just nervous about the unknown, even though I know I will be out of it and won't care or remember after.

The pain should be significant, and while I get Norcos, I won't be able to take them on an empty stomach and won't be able to fill my stomach with something substantial.

I am going to take motrin and THC syrup instead.

So finally feeling normal after Hurricane Irma. Even though my area was not hit dead on, there was a lot of damage around town, mostly downed trees and fences. Power was also out for nearly a week. I feel bad for the Caribbean because they got hit HARD by Irma and just now Maria. Look at the before and after (This is ONLY after Irma):


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I am rewatching Twin Peaks and picking up on small nuggets that I can appreciate having seen the ending. Being in this certain TP group on facebook really gets many theories and ideas in everyones' heads that helps me feel better at times. There really is no explanation and I know it was Lynch's intention to not have to explain anything as we are to interpret it how we individually choose to. It's in our nature to have reasoning behind everything but some things we cannot and that is life and that is what TP was likened to. Life, and how it doesn't always add up. I've been doodling a Twin Peaks tattoo idea because I've wanted a TP tattoo for years and I'm getting the itch again. I have a $100 tattoo place gift certificate that's just burning a hole in my wallet. I hope it didn't expire because I won it years ago.


My mom had to go to the ER due to an allergic reaction to a generic medication. She does fine with it if it's name-brand but what the hell filler did they put inside to set her off? It looks like there are fleshy tea-bags under her eyes now. I know they will take over a week to go down. I had a reaction once and got one bag under my eye. It seemed to only affect half of my face, but it took a while for that to look normal again. I will spare her her dignity and refrain from posting a pic.

I'm getting the itch to start drawing portraits. We used this method in a portfolio class I had in high school in which you overlay your image of choice with a grid and then transfer it to a larger piece of paper with a larger grid to scale. Basically you draw one square at a time instead of being overwhelmed by the whole picture. I'm thinking some Twin Peaks related characters or maybe horror movie related things. Mine from high school was pretty good, it was black and white paint. I am not really at ease with paint but I may give it a shot once the basic sketch is done. But, it's not like photoshop where I can delete mistakes, so there's that. I also want to get my TP bracelets made again, I have two new 3d charms that were made from polymer clay that will be awesome lookin'.

I'm reading No Death, No Fear by Thich Nhat Hanh. It was a gift from a friend because I'd expressed I've dealt with death anxiety. The book can apply to life so it's worth a read even if you don't worry about death/dying. This is a quote that really hit home for me:

“When conditions are sufficient, we manifest. When conditions are no longer sufficient, we no longer manifest. It does not mean that we do not exist. Like radio waves without a radio, we do not manifest.”
Thich Nhat Hanh

I've always like the spacesuit analogy which is basically just like this one with other terms. We are not our bodies, we are within our bodies, like a car or a space-suit. What are your thoughts on this?

I am also reading a book called The Book Collector by Alice Thompson which I actually heard of from a dream-friend beautyizdead via Goodreads. I'm digging it so far! It's a short one so hope to be done today or tomorrow, time permitting. This is getting TL;DR so consider this entry at a close.